Growing and a dream of strength

Anyone who knows me understands that there is a part of me that has been suffering with extreme battles with darkness most of my life. Not just the blackness of the room…but the darkness within the darkness. Since early childhood as I lay in bed at night I would watch as a portion of the room typically grew darker than the rest followed by extreme fear and danger. As a young person I was so confused. I did not understand that there was not something wrong with me and that there was in fact something standing in my room at night. I wish that I would have understood then that the spirits in my room at night were not malevolent but more so just pulling the energy around it. As time has marched on I am growing strong and shedding off the years of night terrors and the feelings of immediate danger and looming doom.

I am strong enough now to understand that I was given a great gift. I can communicate with those who are disincarnate. I see them in my waking hours and in my dreams and it is a real joy to be able to openly communicate with those that I love or that need my help (this aspect is something I am working on and will explain at another time). I am learning new schools of thought from my super conscious mind. I now understand that there is no such thing as good and evil. There is only love and the lack there of. It is my only duty to love God and my neighbor as myself, and I can break no other rules.

I am moving to a place where I am going to start charting my life psychic events and dreams from earliest memory. I am not sure why I need to do this but I know it is important. There will be more messages of this charting as I begin.

Today is a day of celebration for me. Last night when I dreamt I was standing in the bathroom of the house that I lived in as a teen with my daughter and husband. Everything was normal. My husband dropped a contact on the floor which my daughter bent over to help him pick up. Just as she did this I heard MOM!!! MOM!!! And some horrific screaming coming from the other room. I stood still for a moment pulling in all of my sight I understood that in the living room space was the possession from the exorcist and she was harassing my son. Well anyone that knows me knows that I am terrified of the exorcist as that is how so many of the “demons” from my night mares have looked. She is the one thing that just sends me into orbit. I stood calm for a moment in the door way of the bathroom and again I heard the screams. They were so intense that they rang in my ears and traveled down my spine into my gut. Instead of rushing to my son (which I don’t have) I slowly turned and started walking to the living room. Only now we were no longer in the same house. We are walking through the house I lived in as a girl. I got to the dining room, one room away from the living room and I heard the voice of one of my spirit guides say “Go forth with love” I paused for a moment child still screaming and my daughter standing beside me and I gently held her hand and started singing a song. We entered the living room. There was no light on, just the light from the window outside and no furniture in the room. I looked to the far wall expecting to see that possession dismembering my son but instead I seen my son sitting in a cage on the floor beside our cocker spaniel as still as a stone. I approached the cage and knelt down, fully expecting that this was a trick and he was not scared or shaken or screaming…nor was the dog. The bars, my son and the dog disappeared. I looked at the wall in front of me and there was a black imprint of a child’s hand smeared in ash. Something about this imprint gave me a since of urgency or danger and I put my right hand on the wall and shouted “Go now, I release you!! And I release me. And then fast as a shot I woke up eyes wide in the darkness of my room.

The amazing thing about this dream is that I was calm when I woke up. I was not afraid to look around in the darkness and I was not scared to go back to sleep. I have never awoken from a dream of possession in such a relaxed way. I must be growing.